Feeling out of sorts..........

OK, today was an okay day I guess............but I am feeling weird. Not horrible or anything, just weird. I was up to my mom's and we were trying on clothes........it makes me feel awful that I have gained some of my weight back and I can't stop thinking about it. But on the other hand,I can't seem to control it lately. I have bought a book that I think will help alot plus I am still exercising, which is really good! I hope so much that I can lose weight and just be healthy and not worry so much about a stupid number! YUCK!

Then I sort of got into a small argument with Ben, which I immediately felt bad about. I think he thinks I think he is dumb or something...............which makes me feel awful because I am sure I do make him feel that way sometimes but it's really not true. I don't think he's dumb at all..........I hate life sometimes........I really need to write here more though! MOTIVATION! It's what I need the most of! =o) Now I am off to write in Jae's blog..........=o)